Oakley dokey hunny, you say you don't 'feel' anything so first thoughts are the heart chakra see Kays book 'Manifest' to understand more and 'expansion' to meditate on a picture of it. You might think you don't want to and that will be because you have a block!, hence the need for therpists, CDs' (get it!) books etc!, So empower yourself and have a go!. Heart is to do with 'touch' 'feeling'; Dreams in life, compassion, unconditional love and trust ... for yourself!!! as well as others - your meridans with the heart chakra are to do with circulation, joy and happiness - have you shut them off so not to feel the pain? maybe its time to change this belief to 'my mind, body and soul recieves and expresses love and joy, inner peace is my goal' (type of thing). However you say you have 'lost hope' which is crown chakra, you and the bigger picture. Perhaps you think you can't do what you want to do with your life?. The more you talk the more you reveal and I know in time you can re-balance it. When I felt like that in the past, I felt overwhelmed and seeked a treatment. Reiki and books on the subject are lovely, but they are the beginning of energy work, there is so much more to learn to help yourself. Perhaps its time for Tao 1 have a good clear out, learn more skills and the next chapter of chakra man. Whatever seems right for you is the right thing, look for signs, a song that repeats in your head - what are the words - people talking of the same thing, adverts or newspaper cuttings with the same keywords ... if your still emotional its your relationship with yourself and your creativity, cook, garden, paint ... seek and you will find :0) xXx