The Journey … a thought

I have studied KaiAmea for a number of years, and from the start found that it was almost like remembering what I’d forgotten rather than learning something new. Like déjà vu.

Just over 5 years ago, my world fell apart – and I knew it was going to happen. My dad died. My mum was injured, emotionally and physically. Our family unit crumbled. The ripples went out to friends and their friends. I didn’t stop it (it wasn’t just my lesson to learn). So I stopped, took a breath, and then dealt with the police and medical staff. I carried on.

What I had remembered with KaiAmea helped me on that part of my journey. We all signed up for this before setting foot on the path. In my eyes, my dad is a hero for dying to save his family. I don’t know if I would have the strength.

Since then, I continued to work full-time, got married and have 2 wonderful girls. I also fought against the errors made – I have given talks to professionals about what went wrong, which has led to local and national changes being made. People would ask where I got the energy from, and I would smile.

But what I forgot about was the journey. I found myself getting more angry and frustrated at the speed at which others moved. I realized I was judging everyone – how people drove their cars, how to put shopping in a bag, the correct way to make a sandwich!!

I was so interested in making changes and controlling the situation - of living here and now - I forgot that it’s not just the path that you need to concentrate on. Slow down … look up … and breathe.

The universe has been trying to show me for a while – I just didn’t have my eyes open. It was only this week that I stopped, took a breath and looked around. I saw my toddler playing, and my baby smiling. I saw a card my beautiful friend sent me just to say how blessed she was to have me in her life. I opened a book and read “life is teaching you a lesson”. I stopped, took a breath and looked around … and smiled … and cried.

The simple truth is helping people along the path is good. Carrying them is bad. Their journey is not the same as yours. The path you follow is blessed, but it is only the path. The journey starts when you stop, take a breath and look around.